Promise Me. Chapter 5 - 65 Letters.

Jacob’s POV.

I closed my eyes and stayed that way for awhile, I’m losing everybody I opened my heart to. Jason is gone, and now Ashleey’s gone. Courtney is all I have left; I can’t let her go now. Not now, not ever.

“maybe because you’re a jerk? A jerk I fell in love with?”

“Jacob! Not the tickle monster!”

“we’re True Love Always..”

“you changed my world, Jacob Goldstein, promise you won’t forget me..”

“I said I like you, Jake, and not because of what you do, or what you wear, because of what you are,”

“I’ll wait for you..”

“You’re the guy for me, Jake,”

“You promise?”

I put both of my hands on either side of my head; too many flashbacks were filling my mind. Her smile, her giggle, her eyes, I knew if I opened my mouth even the tiniest crack I would start screaming, I would start screaming and I would never be able to stop. I ran my hand through my hair and kept looking down. I needed to go see Courtney. I grabbed my keys and ran out the door.

Courtney’s POV.

I never sent these letters because, I was scared. I wasn’t scared he wouldn’t feel the same way, I was scared of opening myself up for him. He sent me one letter, but I never read it. I found his letter in the box; I opened it up and read it over and over again.

Dear Courtney,
I know it’s been months, and I haven’t written, but just know I am still thinking about you. I never did stop. I love you Courtney. I just needed you to know that. This letter might’ve taken weeks to get to you. It’s worth it. I want you to try and wait for me, but if you can’t, I understand.

P.S. True Love Always, remember?
love,
Jacob.

There were wet spots on the letter and I realized they were my tears. I heard the door creak open, I knew it was Mike, so I didn’t bother turning around. I grabbed all the letters and shoved them back into my closet. I stood up, turned around and saw Jacob standing in front of me. He looked so vulnerable.
“hey Court,” he said, breaking the silence.
I just looked at him. Say something, idiot.
“h-hi..” I stuttered.
“I was just, I came to see you,”
“well, you’re here, what do you need?” I said slowly.
“nothing, I just, wanted, to see you,” he squinted his eyes.
“okay,” I said and I turned around.
I felt his arms around my body, it felt so warm and I missed it so much. He leaned his chin on my shoulder.
“it’s gonna be okay,” he whispered.
I nodded, tears starting to fill my eyes again. “I just, can’t believe it’s happening,”
He turned me around then gently held my face, “Courtney, everything’s gonna be fine, okay? listen to me, time heals everything, all we need is time,”
I hugged him, holding him tight. I pulled away and looked him in the eye.
"I, I need wait for Mike now, you better leave before he comes back,” I said, turning away.
“yeah, I kinda need to go to, I need to, help Andy sort out Ashleey’s stuff,” he replied,
“it was nice seeing you Courtney,”
No, please don’t go, stay with me, I need you.
“okay,” my eyes were wet.
“okay,” he repeated before he walked out the door.
What’s wrong with me? I love Jacob, he needs to know I still love him.
“wait,” I whispered in a voice so weak it had no chance of getting heard. It was too late, Jacob was already gone, and so was a part of me.